so when i chose to do derby, it was just to pass the time. little did i know they weren't kidding when they said it would take over. drby has consumed my soul.  it's like a whole new nicci is coming out. i'm even tougher, i'm mentally healthy,  and i finnaly feel i found my place.  i'm basically living a double life.  by day im nicci vicious lil punk rock girl who works at jack in the box (when she's not injured) , by night ruby sinn comes out to play.  and ruby sinn likes to play rough!two weeks ago i broke my leg.  i cried alot yes the pain sucked...but that wasnt why i was crying. i actally have handled the pain really well.  i cried from anger b/c dammit skating is nmy life now, and not being able to skate is killing me. i knew that night when i landed from that jump and heard that crunch i had broken something. after a few hrs in the er we came to find out i had broken my fibia, right below the knee and sprained my ankle.  but you know what im proud of iyt actually.  its like a badge of honor.  and my league has been so wonderful. calls and messages to see if im ok, donating money. i dont think joy even went to bed til she knew i had gotten home from the er safely.  i have found a new family and its awesome. i'd do anything for any of these girls. and as soon as im allowed to im gonna be back in my skates skating again.  in fact my new skates shoyuld arrive today or tomorrow i hope. 

this is the life i've chosen for my self its my anger management, and my thereapy. some people may never understand it.  but its a decision i'll stick with for quite a while. 

 just remember

 "pain is temporary, quitting is forever" 

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